Linda-98

Great, I made a mistake...

Yesterday i went somewhere and basically got convinced to get a new apprenticeship, that is for me a great opportunity to get a better job that i don't completely hate and a job that pays better, that is a good idea, i really need that, i can't continue like this.

Retail was never a good idea and every day i am getting more aware of that...

And the thing is i started looking into apprentice jobs here in my area and started to remember why I resorted to Retail.

There is pretty much nothing, granted there are painter apprenticeships and other things like the wood works and metal works were you can create stuff but they are usually looking for strong looking people. That is fair but i'm also not that great with numbers, except when they are in front of me. So that means anything behind a desk does scares me...

My mistake was that remembered that I, had once a dream job that i was never able to pursue. I don't think i can ever do that.

Even though i really want to. Like you don't understand how long i have been looking into this again.

Granted it is too late for this year, sadly.

But even if it wasn't i would have to move really far away. And i just can't leave because 1 i'm scared of change and 2 i can't leave my family I have to help them with something i don't really want to talk about. If i were to leave i would be the A-hole. Also i don't know how i could afford living anywhere else with a trainee wage.

Also the job i mean is someone who creates Pottery... I always really wanted to do that.

I just needed to get this off my chest... I know i should probably talk to my family about this, i just don't know how to start this conversation...

I have typed my thoughts might as well release them on the public.

Sooo, Yesterday i had this idea Of making a Dragonair scent diffuser, you know, one with Bamboo sticks? I think I'm not actually sure about that...

It is actually exactly the kind off idea you get past 10p.m. I wanted to do something else and go to bed early, but i really felt that i needed to make this, it is simple enough...

1.So it was Something like this a dragonair holding onto a small bottle,

its a pretty rough sketch, sorry

2.After That i used aluminum foil to give it a shape, turns out aluminum foil and glass don't stick together very well i always forget to make it not too thick...

3.The Base, i used some junk clay that was old and hard to use (dry? it is polymer clay, so is it really dry then??) I just cookiecuttert it, it worked well enough^^"

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I really had to do it, it was really important for this process.

5.I gave it some color with pastel chalk and made it into a space worm, it is now a regional form, ye!

And then I did the ear wings and put everything into the oven while making my breakfast and drinking tea.

(I never write journals or anything at all so please bare with me I'm not that great at doing anything with words... but i wanted to write one, for whatever this thing it)

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I'm continuing this journal because i forgor... Also unrelated to this piece, why is January taking what feels like at least a two months longer than it should?

And here is the finished product. SPINNING. It took me longer tan i would like to admit to make this gif because i had no idea what i was doing... I really hope the spinning part works...

Sorry for probably skipping a few steps i started this in september of 2023 and forgot that i made this journal post. The figurine was done in like a week.

I made aluminum wire tree and glued some fake moss on it (at least i think it is fake, its heavily processed)

I am aware that is is written badly and without reason but i had fun doing this.I hope you like this, Whatever this is....

Important edit a few seconds after i posted this...

you can see my mug that i broke the other day, this is upsetting! And i i forgor to say please do not mind the mess...